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Name: melissa Location: United Kingdom Birthday: 9/10/1989 Gender: Female
Interests: i dont know! lol
Expertise: i dont know!
Occupation: Education/training Industry: Entertainment
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Member Since:
11/21/2003
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| woooooooooah!!!!!!!!1 its been forever since i went into this site. hehe. if this site gets all screwed up later. sorry! hehe. anyway, im sooo bored. i dont think i can survive much longa! hehe. well today was kool. im going to have a mock trial in english. | | |
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| i feel so overwhelmed. i feel so weak too. its like my mind cant bear to listen to my own conscience. the smallest things can make me feel....so guilty! i just wish that maybe i didnt have to be so useless. why is the world so full of hatred? maybe the reason for me being who i am is because of the effect the people around me have done. i dont know what comes over me when i sin. there is nowhere in the world that i belong to. maybe god made a mistake and i was accidentally born. like the hundreds of times i sed before, people these days can be so mean. just plain mean. like today, it was during PE that i was reading a book. i was with my two frends and i hear this loud chatty laughter. i turn around and i see the two of the people i most disdain. and not only were they laughing. they were laughing at me. or so i thought. and what did i do? i turned away and i almost buried my face in my frend's bookbag. then during economics, a boy that i knew made fun of me, told me that he hated how this girl in our class dressed, because her fat would stick out. i told him how rude he was. i wished that i could have sed so much more. just burst out that the world has had enough unneccessary comments on the ones that seem to be disgusted at. of all the people, its a shame to feel and be one of them.... i dont have an insecurity over my physical features, but of my character. | | |
| yo this is my first entry! it was so kool what happened today! okei this is what happened. i have a major crush on pery! and today when i was walking back to my seat from putting my paper in the basket... i caught him staring at me and he immediately turned around right away! i was like what!? haha...and the other time is wen he was standing right in front of me and i dont know if he was waiting for his frend to sit down but his frend wasnt even inside the room and he and i were the only ones on that side of the room...it was funny and then he left like he didnt know what happened. haha its funny but sometimes i feel like there is competition between me and my frend...i dont know if he likes her..i know that he doesnt like me but its just fun at least fantasizing cuz u know..im sooo ugly..i dont know if im ever going to get a guy..anyway one day, he was walking behind me and then i heard his frend say, "tell her u like her" and i KNOW it wasnt about me but like i sed its fun fantasizing.. also i think he likes somebody else..ionno. kenny and i fought before in the eighth grade wen me and him had to work together as partners and i made him do all the work. wellk, what happened today was that i had to work with him agen and its all good now! cuz we dont hate each other any more! he even sed, "dont make us go through that agen" i was like haha wut are u talking about!? haha that was kool! so bye ill come bauc later! | | |
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